Well Roy and David, I have no answers for you but God has them all and some of his greatest gifts are unanswered prayers. Hard as it is to see that sometimes, looking back on my life I find it's been true every time. God bless you guys and your families.
+1 and thumbs up to your good advice
Coffee brewing
64 headed to 70 with 30% chance of thunderstorm
+100 and 2 Thumbs up...
If not for God and actually believing in our marriage vows both of us would have abandoned each other before now.
They say it is the darkest before the dawn, and it is pretty dark right now... Yesterday after therapy (we split the session) she said her view right now was out of 23 years together, 19 had stank... Never heard that before... Surely not during that time... I know she is drinking deeply of the cup of depression, and I am praying soundly for her, and for me.
I know, an all logic knows, the vast majority of all marital problems comes down to MONEY. 11 months at almost nothing for income, 14 months of a terrible job at maybe 50% of my former income, and candidly still the last 6.5 months at a GOOD job but with almost nothing for commission (which is 55-60% of my total income) has been devastating. I can see the light of increased income around the bend and headed in... I've been working until 11pm some nights, things are perking for me.
I can also see how my fears fed my over-controlling tendencies, which fed my fears, into a viscious cycle where I sucked all the joy and fun out of life, and it became toil and drudgery. Persoanlly I find hard work to be its own reward, but little girls and wives tend to feel differently...
The truth is, even without horses and pasture, etc. I've got many, many years worth of work right here in front of me still.
I believe that with God's help, somehow this will all work out for the best, even though I have no idea what that will look like...
Some days are easier than others though...
I appreciate all the support form you guys. More than I can express...
God Bless all of you and all of yours.
Be well,
David