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[westbrooklawn]

Eddie,

Didn't see your original post, but I can read between the lines. Went through a similar situation 13 years ago, and I can really empathize with your pain. As others have said, keep busy, excersize, stay close to God, talk with your friends... even if it's only online. Find a good marriage counselor and spend a few sessions with him/her. It will help you understand what happened, and what the problems were... understanding this is a tremendous relief in itself. You will find out that you were not the problem... you are a good person... I can tell just from the posts and comments I have read on this site.

Right now you are traveling through a dark, deep forest... let me assure you that at some point you will begin to see some light, and all of a sudden you will find yourself in a bright and happy place... it will just take time.

I know I am a stranger other than the contact we have had on this site, but I would be more than willing to talk with you if you wanted. I have requested to become a "friend" on your facebook page... your decision. My prayers are with you.

 

[lakngulf]

Hang in there, Eddie. Time is your best ally, and time spent busy will be a blessing. You are a project man with a detail eye. I have enjoyed reading your posts, following your projects, and getting to know you cyberly. I, too, feel like a know a good man, a strong man.....with a heavy heart just now. Best of luck as you find busy, find direction, find out how many folks are pulling for you, and find your way out of this.

 

[EddieWalker]

I looked up Acute Depression since nothing came up for "acute depressive illness." Definition of Acute Depression

From reading the list of symptons, I'd say that it's very close to what I'm feeling. I haven't had any suicide thoughts, but the other things on the list pretty much sum up how I feel.

Having been through this before, I know that it's just a matter of time for it to fade and then go away. I'm in a waiting mode righ now and figure it will be six months to just fee human again, and probably several years to get totally over this. I don't have any interest in dating or meeting anybody, but know that will change with time.

Right now, I just really appreciate the support that I'm getting and the reasurance that I'm not a terrible person. I struggle between blaming myself and wondering why I wasn't a better husband.

My faith in God got me through my last divorce when I felt the same way. I know that there is a plan for me, and I've always tried very hard to follow that path. I don't understand how this happened, but realize that it was for a reason and that my future has now become open to new oportunities.

Thank you,
Eddie

 

[mikim]

!@#$%^&* Eddie !!
I didn't see your original post either but am sure sorry to hear about it. BTDT ... years ago.....hang in there...and I agree with some of the others -- road work really helps. It's strange but a daily 6 mile run can actually pick your spirits up. It's tough getting dressed for it and getting out there .... but after - it feels so much better.----and do it OFF your property.....looking at too much other stuff there interferes with the process.

 

[jinman]

Eddie, I was your friend before either you or I got married and I'm still your friend. This is a tough, tough time and I won't torment you by listing all the things that will be there to remind you of your loss. Just stay active and stay focused on moving on with your life. When you need a friend or if you want to get away for awhile, my door is always open. In the meantime, keep your life as normal as possible by doing normal things and reach out to friends and relatives who are close. That should be easy for you because you're a good guy with a big heart and tons of talent. In time, this will pass. We'll be here with you the whole way.

 

[zzvyb6]

Hi Eddie. After seeing your original post and relating to it pretty much, and looking at your construction website, noticing all the incredible home-works that have been done, I can't believe that over the years and along those many paths, you haven't noticed a woman that aroused your curiosity about what it would be like getting to know her. Ya know? I'll bet that the look you gave her when wondering about it made her wonder what it would be like to get to know you. Well son, now is the time...

 

[EddieWalker]

I've been getting friends request from some of you at facebook and I welcome them. The more the better. I read everything and I'm flattered that so many of you care enough to respond, send an email and search out my profile on facebook. Thank you.


Eddie

 

[polo1665]

Eddie,
Add me to the list of those who were floored by this news. I have not been on TBN for long and don't post that much, but I certainly have always enjoyed reading about your projects and adventures. I feel for you, and also for the two children who surely will suffer without your influence.
I realize that you are going through a difficult time, but I sense that you are strong and will find your way through it. You certainly have some very good friends on this sight, judging by the responses so far. You can take some comfort in knowing that all of these people (including myself) have a great deal of admiration and respect for you.

Good luck,
Mark

 

[LBrown59]

Hang in there.

 

[dooleysm]

Sorry to hear this news Eddie. I've been impressed with everything you've done and posted about here on TBN through the years. A guy with a wide variety of interests and that takes pride in his work is OK in my book. You've got a friend in southern Indiana. Keep your chin up, it can't rain all the time.

 

[Steve_Miller]

Keep your chin up, there's no reason to hang your head. We are who we are and by wondering if you should / shoulda changed your life to accommodate others then you will always be second guessing yourself. As you plant your feet on the floor each morning consider yourself fortunate to be able to do what you like to do each day as its comes. Life is always going to be full of ups and downs, enjoy the ups and learn from the downs. I went looking for your post the next day and I began to wonder whether I dreamt that post or not.

Steve

 

[Wayne County Hose]

Eddie,

I didn't see the original thread. My God, I am so sorry for you. I literally want to sit here and cry. Having read your posts for quite a while now, I can tell that you are a good man that had something really crappy happen to him. I don't know what to tell you. Whenever you had problems before, it seems like writing them down did you some good. I can see why you would want to post things. maybe if you just typed out your thoughts and didn't post them. maybe type it into your email program and save it as a draft.

Good luck Eddie, we will say a prayer for you and your family. If you ever feel the need to get away for a little while, you are more than welcome here for as long as you like. The only advice I can give you is matter what, take the high road. Nobody ever regretted doing the right thing.

Andy

 

[two_bit_score]

I'm sorry to hear about what happend Eddie. I know you'll make it through this and I hope it's quickly. I'm sure you probably have more friends than you think you do.

 

[jayste]

Eddie, I'm somewhat at a loss for words (that's a little strange for me)! I'll just PM you. Just remember we're behind you. And last but not least have a clear head if you're using a circular saw or some other tool that might harm when your mind is preoccupied.

 

[IH3444]

Hello Eddie, I was one whom got to read the original post. To say I was shocked would be an understatment. I declined to post then. I then saw later in the evening it was gone. I awoke this morning, feeling a bit like the day after 9/11. Asking myself was this actually true, or was it a passing dream I had. Then I read this, and I knew that it was true, and not something I had thought in fit full slumber. I am so very sorry, but it is well and good to find out. You have a great family here also. We're here for you, always.

 

[CinderSchnauzer]

Hi Eddie

Although I only know of you through your posts, I can tell you are a good man -- one who dos not deserve this in any way. Believe me no matter how bad it seems at this moment - the worst is past. Put her behind you and move on as best you can. As others have said perhaps some counseling might help ease the pain. Hang out at your church or lean on your friends - whatever works.

I've seen this happen to a couple of dear friends. Don't for a moment start to blame yourself. Some women just have to "find themselves" no matter how well they are treated. One of our neighbors treated his wife like a Queen, causing a lot of problems for the rest of us husbands who were less attentive and whose wives brought it to our attention. In the meantime, she was boffing the kids gym teacher. - go figure.

 

[charlz]

Wow.

 

[Ridgewalker]

Just keep thinking, "This too shall pass"

God Bless you Eddie...

 

[RichZ]

Eddie, you've been a major positive force on TBN, giving many people, including me, lots of good advice. I missed the original thread, so I'm just reading this now. I'm sorry this happened, but life will go on, it always does. Hang in there, you've got lots of friends here at TBN, me among them.

 

[PILOON]

I too read the origional (remouved) post and certainly side with you!

Having read many of your posts on renovations and construction along with your gratious and professional advice to others that show your generous and professional nature make me shudder at the treatment you have just been dealt.

I too earned my living in construction and renovation hence I can attest to your professionalism and intergety, from your postings.

All this to say she did not deserve you, as you are too nice a guy.

Shame is she's a gold digger and used you as a stepping stone and will probably do the same to the next guy.

Keep you chin up!