I was hoping for better results.
Doctor gave me 3 options and to let him know before the end of the month...got some thinking to do.
choose from bad, worse or awful?
prayers sent your way for a good outcome
one of the upsides, among all the downsides, of not having had children
is I can freely make decisions about my health without the input of children I am responsible for,
and who always want you to utilize every possible medical procedure.
I did that for seven years with my late wife, and after a dozen operations, there was no question this was
a terrible idea. But my wife was a nurse and her Dad was dying and she wanted to stick around to take care of him
So we went 100 rounds. I wound up with horrible caregiver PTSD and had to go get my sanity back on that NC farm.
Grew a lot of vegetables and fruit trees that lived to show that life went on.
And of course it did.
But each year as we get older and I'm now 74, yes younger than a bunch of you, I am less willing to get involved in invasive
medical stuff. I'll get tested as they like, but then, like Thomas, I have to think about what is best for me.
My primary doc said he wanted me to have a couple more good years. We are on the same page.
if I'm lucky and stay reasonably healthy, well score one for the good guys. But if not, well ok too.
it's a tough subject but here's a good example. Radical neck surgery caused by neck/throat/ear cancer.
They sometimes have to carve a big part of your head off. And you can't talk again except electronically.
is that how I want to go out?
My Father said no when he got esophageal cancer from cigars.
back then they didn't have fentanyl. I wish they did. My Uncle went from pancreatic cancer, one of the most painful I'm told.
many of you know how the end days of cancer can just be plain awful.
today fentanyl will cure what ails you, temporarily or permanently.
which is a circuitous route back to an early thought that maybe the best thing for me if faced with a terminal disease
is a nice trip to the Disneyworld of my dreams and just say no thank you and expire.
I'm ok with expiring. Don't we all want to go out with a smile on our faces?
that's a worst case example. Ratchet down the drama to do you want that hernia operated on or can you live with it?
Docs are body mechanics, they diagnose and then fix.
if your labs are out of range, well of course you need to fix it.
really?
sorry, that was quite a side trip.
back to regular programming
Don, I think it's very cool you are getting into a nicer place, more of what you want, at this point in your life.
Many of us just sort of get stuck with the familiar.
marvelous pic Scott, thanks
I’m sure you will do the right thing ! 
