Please accept my sincere condolences for your loss.....
They say as we get older, most of us tend to get lonelier, for many reasons including the inevitable loss of friends and family. A good church can be a great source of comfort and nonjudgmental friendship. I say "nonjudgmental" because unlike most of society where you tend to be judged on your looks, youth, wealth, etc., in a good church people are at least *trying* to accept you for whoever you are.
On a tractor forum, of course there is no "grouphug" emoji, but sending you one anyway.