What I'll Be Doing for Memorial Day, reading what this guy went through.
Memorial day is a rough day for me. It's a day of remembering. Remembering can be a curse when you have spent years trying to forget.
I spent 22 months 28 days in sunny Southeast Asia. I came back physically whole. No members missing, no tag on my toe. But by the grace of god, my brothers and just plain dumb luck, I made it home.
I've been a pretty good father to my daughter. I have a nice home, a good business and good friends. With these results, I consider myself as doing ok compared to some of my other fellow veterans.
Memorial day is not a day for self-pity, or selfish thoughts. So today I turn my thoughts to other people, other places, other things and other times.
I remember the heat, the heat that kept you from taking a full breath for weeks. Heat that zapped your strength beyond exhaustion. Heat that kept you from sleeping, heat that made you sweat buckets, and heat that made you freezing cold at 70 degrees.
I remember lush green tropical mountains. I remember the red earth that was sticky enough to glue a deuce and a half in place, and slippery enough to make it impossible enough to stand on, and dusty enough to choke you into a coughing fit like the world war 2 cigarettes you smoked.
I remember the rice paddies. They could get you killed or they could save your life. Dykes stopped bullets but could leave you exposed if you were dumb enough to walk on them. The water smelled of feces, but that was better than not drinking at all.
I remember the rain. The rain that broke the intolerable heat that never stopped. It could be as gentle as silk or as stinging as a nest of bees. Rain that let you get a good clean shower, but rotted your feet until they bled.
I remember the sun. I remember the moon, a moon so bright that it lit up the LZ as you came in, but then hoped you could get out.
I can never forget the colors of an explosion. The white center bleeding out into a yellow ring surrounded by a stack of rolling smoke that was beautiful and terrifying at the same time.
I remember the green and orange tracers coming up at you in the night hoping that none of them found their mark.
Above all of this I remember people. I remember the faces and things that happened, they still crowd my days and nights with pleasure and pain. I can remember entire conversations and events in exact detail, but I can only remember the names of just a few, I do not know why. Shouldn't it be the other way around?
I remember the parting face of LT Sykes as a RPG flew over my shoulder and hit the nose of the chopper I was running to. I remember the eyes of a confused and terrified little girl as I took her life away from her. I remember a friend who hung himself three days after he saw a childhood friend that I picked up. I remember another friend with who I used to play guitar with, I remember coming into a hot LZ and having his head explode all over me. I remember the quiet calm of a guy after I told him he would be ok as I held what was left of him in my arms. I gave him enough morphine to kill a horse because he was almost cut in half below the waist and I knew he would never make it back to Da Nang.
Of the hundreds I knew, I kick myself for remembering so few. Especially on this Memorial Day when I should be able to remember each and every one. They are the ones who paid for this Memorial Day. This is their day. But I will not spoil it by forgetting even one of their faces.
I will remember, God help me I will remember, from this day forward I will carry their memory and their spirit with me as a living memorial to their sacrifice, and dedication to their country, their duty and honor, and to their brothers. They shall not pass gently into the night as long as I have a breath in my body to shout REMEMBER, REMEMBER. . .For Gods sake, please Remember.
Memorial Day,